OH Happy Day!

I'll never forget the afternoon of June 14th, 2011. For the first time in my life there was a real possibility that I could be pregnant. I was afraid to hope too much and my heart was so comfortable w/ the doubt that I was certain that the test would show up negative. Imagine my complete and utter surprise when I saw two pink lines show up, a positive indication that you were inside of me...a dream that was going to become a reality. I can not articulate perfectly the variety of emotions that I felt when I saw those two pink lines...it was so overwhelming that all I could do was break down and cry. The biggest emotion that I felt was of breathtaking gratitude. I remember thanking God immediately over and over. I wanted to have faith that this would someday happen for us but I never let my heart believe fully that it would.

Since that day I have never been the same and I know that I never will be the same again... and it's amazing and wonderful to experience all of this! We are so excited...beyond words excited!

The first person I called was your Aunt Tosha. Eleven years prior, I was fortunate to be there while she took her first pregnancy test and found out that she was pregnant with your oldest cousin Grant. It was just as surprising for her then and I was so thrilled to share that with her. So immediately, I thought of her and wished she were here to witness all of this w/ me. So I called her and she let out the biggest cheer of excitement, she can not wait to meet you! She will be a great Auntie to you. After a few minutes, I realized she was not alone hearing all of this - your Mimi was there too! So she got to hear the news of YOU that day too. Of course, your counsins Grant & Zach were there as well (and they hope that you are a boy :)) They all promised to keep the news a secret from grandpappy and the rest of the family until we all get together next month for Fourth of July weekend. Even Grant & Zach promised they would not say a word...you are a very cherished secret at the moment.

Now, your Daddy was at work so technically he was the 6th person to find out about you. LOL that was not my intention. But you don't always think very rationally when you find out the biggest news of your life. So I wanted to think of a creative yet sweet way of letting him know about you. I knew he would be over the moon happy but also so very very very surprised. When he came home that night I had posted a sign on the back door that read, "Welcome Home Daddy!" I wish that I had taken a picture of his face when he walked through that door. Such sweet, sweet surprise...stunned surprise would probably be a better description. I showed him the two pink lines and we just held on to each other. In all of my life, I've always felt loved, but never as much as I felt loved right then. We had a quiet evening of just talking and digesting what your pending arrival means to us and what steps we need to do in the near future to start planning. We also called your other Grandparents and let them know the good news. They live in California so as we were not going to be seeing them over the summer we knew we had to let them know about you right away. They are so thrilled! You will be so very loved!

The count down begins little one....you will be here with us next February. Our very own little Valentine baby! We simply can not wait!!!

Love, Mommy

Spring 2011

Your dad and I just had the most amazing vacation - a dream of mine for a long time now has been to travel abroad. Of course, w/ the possibility of having you soon, it would not be feasible to try to plan a trip like this w/ a baby here or on the way. So we had planned this trip back in November of last year to make it happen. We went to London England and it was during the Royal Wedding of Prince William and Kate Middleton - such an exciting celebration to spectate and be caught up in - I have so many stories of this wonderful time to share w/ you one day. Your aunt Ashley & uncle Scott went w/ us and it was 10 days of plenty of adventure. After a few days in London, England we then, well, your daddy & uncle Scott went and rented (and drove) a car so we could travel to a beautiful English coastal town - St. Ives in Corwall, England. (The driving part was super scary but quite hilarious at the same time...definitely lots of pics and stories to share about that too :0)) Cornwall is a place I always read about growing up in different novels and I always, always, always, wanted to visit. Such a special time to get to share this adventure w/ your daddy...we had so much fun. Lastly, we spent our last few days in Paris, France. By far my favorite of the trip...the food, the sights, the romance...it was so memorable.

We had hoped that we would bring home a very special sovenier of our dream vacation...YOU! But it's not to be ...just yet little one. We are trusting in God's perfect timing and so hope for you, but we are keeping busy and daddy and I are just enjoying each other...we know alone time and expensive vacations will be a thing of the past once we have you in our lives. So we want to enjoy it and take it all in...but we can't wait to share our lives w/ You!

This past weekend we planned a little getaway to Wilmington, Wrightsville Beach. Everywhere I looked I noticed little babies...they caught my attention like never before. I never really felt an ache for you as much as I did then...I pray we have faith that God will bless us w/ having you. I can totally envision us ... a family of 3... at the beach w/ you.

Maybe next summer.

xo mommy

Why Can't Everyday Be Like CHRISTMAS?!!

Sweet Baby,

We had such a nice Christmas! Your Daddy & I spent the whole day together - just the two of us. It was wonderful. The only thing that could have made it better is if you had been there w/ us...but soon hopefully you will be!

I simply adore Holidays! I love the celebrating, the good food, the good cheer, the fun of it all. I believe you can always find a reason to celebrate. I can't wait to share that with you....life should be filled with as much joy as possible. Daddy & I stayed the entire day in our pajamas! We watched "It's a Wonderful Life" and ate yummy food all day long...it was a cozy kind of day with lots of love! The best part was tonight when it started to snow!! :)

Tomorrow we get to see Mimi & Grandpap and Aunty Ashley & Uncle Scott and of course your cousins Ava girl & Gav Gav!! You have the cutest cousins in the world...they can't wait for you to come into the world too! We love you...even now, mommy

A dream is a WISH your heart makes....

I'm very ashamed of myself for beginning this endeavor & not sticking to the committment that it requires! I can hardly believe my last blog entry was nearly 10 months ago...so sad. I will be better about it going forward...especially now that we have overcome some obstacles & now can proudly say that we are officially trying to conceive. It will all happen in God's perfect timing but I feel like we are so close now to starting our little family. I had some problems when going off of birth control, which led to the discovery of uterine polyps that had to be surgically removed. The surgery was a success & so we are so hopeful now that we will actually become parents. I feel as if a veil of doubt & fear has been lifted. A woman's intuition should never be ignored...I knew in my heart something was wrong even years ago. Now I feel like I just might be granted this wish...my heart has real hope!

And so little one...we are ardently looking forward to the day when we know your arrival is near!

SNOW day!

We had a delicious snow day weekend of pure laziness!  Your daddy & I were enjoying our entire weekend of just laying around watching movies and tv together.  I made some peanut butter chocolate chip cookies that were heavenly...we had those w/ hot chocolate and marshmallows! We were enjoying the little things that can only be taken advantage of when your snowed up together...the comforts of home should never be overlooked.  Sometimes it takes snow angels to give us days where it's just best to just stay at home!  I'm so thankful for that kind of weekend w/ my love...one day you will be here and we hope to enjoy many snow days with you too!  

Last day of January...exciting steps begin in February for the start of our little family!

xoxo 

Cheers to the New Year!

We had a really nice Christmas 2009! Your Daddy really did spoil me...new coach bag, make up, perfume! Plus we had Grandmammy & Granddaddy w/ your Auntie and your cousins here w/ us...so it was a happy day! We kept thinking that maybe... just maybe...you will be here w/ us by next Christmas...or soon on the way! Christmas is a day to celebrate family and love along w/ the true meaning of the Holiday...which is Jesus' birth. We are so thankful to have the Prince of Peace in our lives...especially during a year that brought some sorrow...we have been able to hold on to the joy! That is such a blessing!

I LoVE all Holidays but especially Christmas and New Years! We are looking forward to a new year full of possibilities and of course full of promise. We look to the Lord from who all blessings come. May You protect us, keep us safe, healthy and happy in this coming year. May we work hard and reach new goals and achievements. May we be successful in areas that we hand over to You for guidance and prosperity. May we be a little closer to beginning our family. :)

Happy New Year little one to be!

xoxo

Daddy in the Making :)

My sweet baby....I want to tell you how wonderful your father to be is and will be with you.  I was very sick this past weekend with the stomach bug and he took such good care of me.  He was so patient and so concerned and so thoughtful, much like he always is, but it was never more appreciated.  His inherent goodness is what makes me so confident that he will be so devoted and committed to you.  You will be so special to him and I know you will always know and feel that.  Your father loves God with all of his heart and makes him a priority, I know he will show you that as well.  Do you know how lucky you are to have a father who loves the Lord?  We were both fortunate to be raised by parents who showed us the importance of a christian home.  We will continue that kind of upbringing in our own home and dedicate your life to Jesus.  Because you will be a gift from Him and so you belong to Him first. I can't wait to see if you'll have your daddy's puppy dog eyes...and dimple.  I hope you will but you will be perfect just as you are.

With love,

mommy